BREAKDOWN my Candy (Heart)
Tuesday, June 22nd, 2004 02:59 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
basildestinyI feel things about trance. I got into a very interesting discussion today and suddenly got myself into a trance by listening to trance. Yes, folks, that is the reason it is called trance. And it works for me without the drugs. It is my drug. I just forget how well it works so I don't have withdrawals.
One nice thing about techno and trance is that it doesn't come with its own memories. Even if I listened to a song while doing something else, there's something new that comes out of it.
I have been sleeping too much lately. Am I awake even when my body isn't in REM? I don't think it has been. I have been trying so hard to be determined and jump back into society that I've forgotten. I've forgotten to take off that cake of slumber that builds up on me by trying to fit into whatever society tells me to be. This whole finding a job interview thing has been such a sham because I don't care what people think. I'm not going to lie in this interview or that interview.
Went on a drive today. Drove to my old neighborhood. There are some big trees in places I didn't remember trees being, in yards that I don't remember there being huge trees. I remember when the tree was a tiny, tiny sampling and now it's big enough to have a child's swing? Freaky! It felt good to remember my roots and how things should be. Makes me wonder how I got so off course.
There are more things that I feel should be in an update, but I think I'm just going to go to bed so I can get up at a decent hour and start calling around for a job.
I am a ddrFreak
~Bas/J Dawg
One nice thing about techno and trance is that it doesn't come with its own memories. Even if I listened to a song while doing something else, there's something new that comes out of it.
I have been sleeping too much lately. Am I awake even when my body isn't in REM? I don't think it has been. I have been trying so hard to be determined and jump back into society that I've forgotten. I've forgotten to take off that cake of slumber that builds up on me by trying to fit into whatever society tells me to be. This whole finding a job interview thing has been such a sham because I don't care what people think. I'm not going to lie in this interview or that interview.
Went on a drive today. Drove to my old neighborhood. There are some big trees in places I didn't remember trees being, in yards that I don't remember there being huge trees. I remember when the tree was a tiny, tiny sampling and now it's big enough to have a child's swing? Freaky! It felt good to remember my roots and how things should be. Makes me wonder how I got so off course.
There are more things that I feel should be in an update, but I think I'm just going to go to bed so I can get up at a decent hour and start calling around for a job.
I am a ddrFreak
~Bas/J Dawg
