Interesting words
Tuesday, May 11th, 2004 05:04 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
basildestinyI mentioned in my last entry that I've spent some time becoming reacquainted with my peers. I want to come back to that subject. To begin, I feel more in touch with myself, our society, this world, than I ever did while plugged into my previous job. I love this feeling and seek to do everything I can not to lose it. I would like to put some money in my pocket so I don't feel afraid to walk out the door and incur more expenses, but that is just an after thought.
I have had some truly fascinating and in-depth conversation of late. When I say my peers, I may be slightly off the mark as there are some who aren't in my so-called generation with whom I have fascinating conversation. Of course, these people are included in my small, but surprisingly growing circle of trusted friends. We've discussed future plans and hopes, goals for our lives, the length of our life, the purpose of life, religion, and any number of topics in between. It's odd how enriched I feel doing absolutely nothing. I feel alive.
I realized today that I have found consolation over the loss of communication between a good friend by increasing communication new friends. I miss my dear friend, but the edge of the knife has been dulled by the support and comfort I have found in new friends. It's not the first time that we have been out of contact for extended periods, but it is the first time that we were on good terms and lost each other not of our own volition. So I realized that I need to write. I hope she writes back, but will understand if nothing comes back.
Finally I think I will go to bed. I may be able to sleep for four and half a hours if I go now. I would like to leave with these words of wisdom from a former co-worker. We left the job within the same time frame. There are really only a few reasons that people leave my last job. We both burned out and got out before our insanity, which was thin at the start, was eroded completely away. We were discussing discoveries we had made about ourselves since quitting and having endless amounts of time to reflect on our lives and the purpose of our lives. He was far more eloquent than I and I'd like to share the words upon which we both agree.
Perhaps true fufillment comes not in seeking to achieve more than I have, for that is a hunger that never dampens, but rather coming to terms with myself, and gaining a sense of respect for who and what I am now. Perhaps so.. Or perhaps we should seek to enrich our own lives, and those around us.. Changing the world to fit a flawed perspective results in simply more injustice. Reaching a state of enlightenment so that one may see through the irrelavent and do what truly matters, whatever that is to you.. That perhaps is a life truly justified in living
~Bas
I have had some truly fascinating and in-depth conversation of late. When I say my peers, I may be slightly off the mark as there are some who aren't in my so-called generation with whom I have fascinating conversation. Of course, these people are included in my small, but surprisingly growing circle of trusted friends. We've discussed future plans and hopes, goals for our lives, the length of our life, the purpose of life, religion, and any number of topics in between. It's odd how enriched I feel doing absolutely nothing. I feel alive.
I realized today that I have found consolation over the loss of communication between a good friend by increasing communication new friends. I miss my dear friend, but the edge of the knife has been dulled by the support and comfort I have found in new friends. It's not the first time that we have been out of contact for extended periods, but it is the first time that we were on good terms and lost each other not of our own volition. So I realized that I need to write. I hope she writes back, but will understand if nothing comes back.
Finally I think I will go to bed. I may be able to sleep for four and half a hours if I go now. I would like to leave with these words of wisdom from a former co-worker. We left the job within the same time frame. There are really only a few reasons that people leave my last job. We both burned out and got out before our insanity, which was thin at the start, was eroded completely away. We were discussing discoveries we had made about ourselves since quitting and having endless amounts of time to reflect on our lives and the purpose of our lives. He was far more eloquent than I and I'd like to share the words upon which we both agree.
Perhaps true fufillment comes not in seeking to achieve more than I have, for that is a hunger that never dampens, but rather coming to terms with myself, and gaining a sense of respect for who and what I am now. Perhaps so.. Or perhaps we should seek to enrich our own lives, and those around us.. Changing the world to fit a flawed perspective results in simply more injustice. Reaching a state of enlightenment so that one may see through the irrelavent and do what truly matters, whatever that is to you.. That perhaps is a life truly justified in living
~Bas
