Baka

[basildestiny]

I hate people today. I do not know why. It might be because I hate the people who reply to Punky's journal. I just don't know why that means that I hate them. It might be because I feel like I am going to throw up again and I'm tired of dropping out of school, but I always get sick or something else happens but Tiffany and Ro already have their two year degree. That's bachelor's, right? Hold on, I feel like I'm going to vomit... ok, that's better. Being sick is really gross. I went to my 8 am class, realized I had a lab and hadn't brought the lab book so skipped lab, then I started feeling like I was going to hurl. I hate that I always play Devil's advocate because I hate people who always play Devil's advocate. I think Aristotle's philosophy that the truth is in reality and that we should measure and analyze to find the truth is only partially what we should do. I think that Plato's idea that the truth is in the invisible realm of ideals and can only be found through thinking is much closer. Thinking should obviously include educating yourself and learning all that you can which would include the idea of collecting and analyzing data. I wish the neighbor's dog would shut up. It is barking at the garbage collector's, but it is annoying and pierces my brain. Still. It has always done that. It's high pitched and pubecent. I hate that I bother to post on FF net. I am not an amateur film anything other than I enjoy watching Garrett's movies, but he hasn't made any in a while. That was close. Almost emptied the contents of my stomach again. Hooray! I hate that I am fat and no amount of exercising or dietary changes seems to make any difference. I feel that I should starve myself and let my body sort it out. I hate that I have to consider other people's feelings all the time. But I hate the idea of being inconsiderate. I hate the dog's barking. I am going to go lie down and hope I do not vomit.

Comments

[vitani-le.livejournal.com]

Feeling sick os one of the worst physical feeling in the world, at least for me. Hope it passes soon, Bas. *hug*

Starving yourself will make you lose it. It WON'T make you keep that weight down or help yourself healthy (which you usually need in order to keep your weight down). But I can't offer any course of action, so... Just sleep for a while, I suppose. Sleep usually makes one feel a lot better. It'll clear your head.

A two year degree is an "Associate's Degree," I think. Four years is the "Bachelor's." *nods*

I like Plato's idea of the truth better than Aristotle's... But honestly, I don't know if there even is truth at all, therefore I don't know of either of them is right. *shrug* Honestly? I think the truth is what you make it to be.

Hope you feel better soon!

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[basildestiny]

lol There's a truth. But that's goes back to my refusal to believe in things that don't enrich my life such as believing there is no meaning to life.

I CAN eat right. But I can't starve myself to get down to the right weight through eating right and I can't find the time to work out more so than I already do. It's this cycle. I eat salads, I eat my veggies. I don't eat a lot of meats. I try to avoid too many carbs. But I just don't work out enough and I like food even healthy ones. Starving would get me down to the correct weight and then I could eat right? Sydney suggested I give that a try. That would probably make me happy if I were to finally achieve the correct weight. Maybe I'll finally try the Adkins. I've heard it is no faster than any other diet though.