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The search feature of the paid account is actually quite fun. I have found several coworkers whose journals are all public. It makes me want to post on them. I want to say "Hello! Wow, we seem to have a lot in common. You suffer from depression? I used to!" and have a conversation from there. I think that might be fun. But then I realize that I would have to go to work and talk to these people. And you know, I'm incredibly shallow and don't feel like standing up for these people. It could be just the mood I am in right now--that I need sleep. Or it could just be that I am an incredibly shallow person indeed. I've also noticed that people in Oak Ridge who have Livejournals also have a tendency for DDR. My Passion! I would really enjoy having a DDR buddy. Trouble is that a lot of them also happen to be 16. No 16 year old DDR buddies for me, thanks. You may be very nice and open minded, but your parents will gut me in 2 seconds flat! There are many people in Oak Ridge that I feel I could make a connection with them. We could talk about DDR and their depression. What that feels like. Why are they so alone? The whole having a conversation thing. It turns out that I am a very ... conservative person with my friendships. I will be your friend to pull you out of the gutter or push you along or give you any kind of assistance. But if you want to actually know personal things about me? Well you'd better share some with me. I've always guarded my experiences from others and didn't want to share. I can see why I did that in High School. The things that went on in my home weren't things that I wanted to share. I've grown past that now. I'm working on growing past my old views of friendship. I'm learning to giving even when I get nothing in return. I post in my journals as public entries. Anyone could read these and I would be none the wiser. Hardly anyone posts that they've read them. Sometimes a friend from work will mention something that I wrote in my journal. It still kind of stings when something is brought up from my journal and it is taken as fact. It just irks me. My mother is the kind of person who says things like if they cared that much they would ask me. It's hard to get out of that mindset that if someone cared about me, they would ask. What do I care if they ask or not? I don't call around and ask about my friends. I should. I really ought to do that, but it seems like I always have something else I could do other than call and ask about the people I care about. They are a bit like me with being recluses and all that. I'm glad to be moving past that. I am a bit of an ass or a bitch as far as speaking my mind lately. My best friend was talking about how she missed Sydney and I just blurted out that she didn't and just argued the fact. I'm just used to people not liking Sydney and it struck me more like she was saying that out of respect our the friendship I have with her than a real desire to see him. I wanted her to know that it didn't matter to me if she didn't like him. But I guess she could have meant what she said. Also I snapped at her husband (also my friend) when he asked about work. I hate talking about work and I find it hard to believe that anyone would really care about CL to ask about it. But maybe he was just trying to make conversation!

I got distracted from this entry. Sydney wanted to talk about the sign I am getting him. Here's the sign

It is rumored on ddrfreak.com that West Town now has DDR EXtreme (8th mix). To most people that would be good news. That saddens me! I don't want to have Extreme there. I have it at Celebration Station. I think I will pay West Town a visit either tomorrow or Monday to verify this dreadful news. ddrfreak has been known to be wrong. It didn't have Celebration for a while. I really hope the 7th mix machine isn't gone.

-will be a sad panda without trance de janeiro

Mortal Kombat Video

Thought I'd share it with my friends. I found it on a Mortal Kombat community. Check it out! It has a cool ending. Violence and gore from the MK game. Select Liu Kang wins for the best ending.

Mortal Kombat Flash Video

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I found a DDR community I don't like. Hooray! More time for the other community. What a bunch of complainers. I posted that MK with DDRality and they got all mad because they had seen it before and it was a year old. Geez. Sorry, dude. Skip the entry. But whatever, I wasn't much enjoying the posts on that community anyway so I didn't see the point in continuing on there.

Also saw 50 First Dates. Just a few things to say about this movie. First of all, I loved it! I'm definitely going to buy it when it comes out on DVD. It's one of those perfect romance movies. It's got the humor and it's got the romance and angst. Also for the Frodo/Sam slash addicts, do you think Sam said "Check out my titty dance, Mr. Frodo!" That was killing me the whole time. What a nice body. I think I can like slash fans now without going psychotic. As long as we both agree to disagree. lol I don't mind gay characters as long as they really are gay. Until I see cannon scream-in-my-face evidence, I will be the stubborn disbeliever in that kind of stuff. And what exactly is slash? I've been going on the assumption that it is gay fiction with characters that might not go together. But I'm not so sure it is. I would think slash just refers to / which means that I would have my own slash beliefs. Also I nearly peed my pants in the scene when Lucy beats Ula. That was the funniest part of the movie even after having seen it in the trailer. Ula was an awesome character. He wasn't too over the top like some Rob Schneider character which seem to get the point where you are tired of seeing them. This character I missed when he wasn't on screen. There are some surprise stars in this movie. Also there are some good movies coming out soon. The trailers beforehand seemed really cool. I really enjoy seeing Jim Carrey in serious roles.

Also I really enjoy Queer Eye for the Straight Guy, but for some reason all of the icons and the sudden pop culturism of the show is getting on my nerves. I don't understand the whole pop way of thinking. I have a few passions: writing, discussion, DDR.

Oh, final thing. Took a quiz. ( I have a heart of gold! )

That was really unexpected, but I was glad to hear it. I was starting to feel a little bitchy of late. It could just be that I'm lashing out because I've seen people that I love hurting lately and can't fix it. And that I don't want people to think that they have to be fake around me.

I'm going to the mall tomorrow. I heard rumor that there was a Mortal Kombat Trilogy game which I would really like to own. I'm going to look for it. I'm hoping that the 7th mix machine is still there. I will be quite sad if it is indeed an 8th mix.

~Bas

ps I no sooner post this than someone insults my favorite community.

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