June 20, 2007

[basildestiny]

So yesterday we stopped by the cemetary. I haven't been there in a while. As I've said in the past, it gets discouraging to be unable to find the particular grave you've come to visit. But it occured to me that I'd never brought my husband to there and shown him the general direction of the grave. So we went to visit my brother on his birthday. He would have been 18 yesterday. He would have graduated from high school this past month. He'd be picking out a college. I wonder if he would have been a police officer or a firefighter or an EMT or a ninja. I know that my hopes and dreams changed as I got older and yet I still managed to not do a single one of those things on my list. Still, I like to think that our family would have been able to keep his dreams alive and pointed him in the right direction. My other brother joined the Marine Corps to inspire him to do the right thing. He almost didn't go when he died. Still I think my brother enjoyed his time in the Marine Corps as much as anyone could. He got to play with great big guns and fly on choppers. He was also bored out of his mind a lot, but at least he learned patience, right?

Hard to believe it has been 7 years since Christopher was thrown off of a deck.

In less depressing news, we're going out to dinner and a movie to enjoy my last day off with my husband for about four weeks. We're still undecided on the movie. Either PotC3 or Mr Brooks.

Sephiroth!! DUN DUN DUN!
-Jay

Comments

[nikgirl.livejournal.com]

Wow, 7 years, man. It really doesn't seem like it was so long ago. I know you suffered a lot when he died, but whenever you talk about him now you're insightful and graceful. Like you're all grown up, or something. ;)

I do like that ninja idea, though.
Happy birthday, Christopher.

[basildestiny]

How sweet! You think I'm insightful and graceful. I appreciate that. It's still an open wound that I haven't completely dealt with. But I'm not even sure how to deal with it right now. I don't think now is the time or place.

7 years means we've known each for 7 1/2 almost 8 years. Since getting my portable DVD player, I have yet to break it in with the Pokemon movies. But that'll be next on my list.

Being a ninja would be pretty cool. Kinda like being a Mutant Turtle minus the whole living in the sewer part. But they got to eat a lot of pizza so that has to be cool, right?

[spaghetti-os.livejournal.com]

Seven years...Wow. Ditto on Punky's comment. You've always been mature and insightful, evening when it happened.

But things change, and even though you are just as insightful as Punky said, God is there to help you heal...And maybe that helps you as it does others.


He probably would have been a ninja-firefighter. Sneaking into burning buildings and saving people in distress. Then chopping down the flames!