Happy Birthday to me!
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basildestinyWell I had a great day yesterday. There were some disappointments, but I refused to let them get me down.
We went out to Red Lobster. I guess to some people that's like the MacDonald's of seafood restaurants. I don't care. It's something that my family used to do for birthdays. I have a lot of good memories of going there with my family. I'm always reminded of my brother's last birthday. I think I tell Matt this story every time we go to Red Lobster.
I just had a really great time doing that. We went to Funscape, bought some passes to the place and went on every ride. We played some arcade games. We went into the awesome 3D theatre and had a blast on those. I got on that crazy indoor roller coaster even though I don't like roller coasters because he couldn't get on it by himself. He spent about $20 or so on this arcade game that dispenses ticket and then got some silly junk that we could have bought cheaper. But it was good fun. We went to Red Lobster. We had cherry coke. He got a shrimp cocktail and asked what would happen if he ate the tail part. I told him he'd choke, but he wanted to try anyway. And of course he choked on it. haha Then we bought tickets for Tarzan the Disney movie, but since it didn't start for an hour, we went over to the local pet store and looked at their mice and fish and stuff. And finished up with watching the movie.
Good times. But it brings to the surface issues I need to deal with. I still haven't come to terms with his death. I'm aware it happened. April 19th. I cried and mourned and I buried it deep down because there were other things, other people who needed comfort. Then I felt numb and dead for several months. And now, I fight to cry every time I think about it. That's been 7 years ago this April. It's not normal. So I'm going to deal with it. It's time to be free from that.
I also have some anger issues with some friends. It's preventing me from forming other friendships now. I'm suspicious and second guessing of the motives of new friends I try to make. I imagine problems or issues because we don't talk on a certain day at a certain time. It all boils down to suppressed anger. I'm going to deal with this too. I want to be free of it. I thought I'd forgiven, but I'm still feeling this anger.
Matt's schedule is changing again. He's going back to the 2 pm - 11 pm shift with Wednesdays and Thursdays off. We're not very happy with this change. I've been praying to find a small group, to make new Christian friends, and for God to send me an accountability friend. Someone I can confide in and go to for direction from time to time. We were looking for the answer to be Saturdays and Sundays off. I have to wonder if this isn't the answer. God working in another direction. I'll still pray that there is another way.
This weekend is the miracle offering. I really want God to show up and answer our prayers with this offering. I know He can and I just want to see it. I want to be there to witness it.
Other than this, I have a whole list of things to get done which probably won't get done today. I need to focus on the Word and commune with God for a while. I've been neglectful.
Oh! And for my birthday, I got:
John Reuben's Word of Mouth--This is a good album. The reviews were right. He's still cynical, but the style isn't all over the place.
Relient K's Five Score and Seven Years Ago--Another gotee records group like John Reuben. Gotee Records is Tobymac's record company. He's got some great bands. I already knew this album was great. I really enjoy it. My favorites would be Give Until There's Nothing Left, Crayons Can Melt On Us For All I Care, and Deathbed. Deathbed is epic!
Kirk Franklin's Songs for the Storm Vol 1--I really like Blessing In The Sun, Melodies From Heaven, and Look At Me Now. I read an interesting blog entry. It was a comment on Tobymac's MySpace so I followed it over to read the entry. It was talking about how a lot of churches try to imitate worship styles. Especially Kirk Franklin's style. I can see why they'd want to do that. It's amazing. But I don't want to imitate it. I want to learn to worship like that.
Mat Kearney's Nothing Left to Lose--I really like this album as a whole. There are a few songs that were overplayed and my all time favorite is probably Crashing Down. But I like the tone of the album and the songs overall.
I'm intending to get Kirk Franklin's other new album Hero. There are quite a few songs on it that I like. Let It Go, Could've Been, Imagine Me, Sunshine, Keep Your Head.
Also KJ-52's new album Behind the Musik. I love his sound. He's like Eminem with the sense of humor, but minus all the negatives of Em's music. He fills that hole that I had. I like some good rap. Tobymac is more hip hop than rap. He raps a little, but it's not like straigh rapping. He likes to have a good musical beat. Whereas KJ likes raps. I don't know the name of my favorite song on his album, but I think it has his daughter in it.
And Will Smith's album from 2005 Lost and Found. I really like just about every song on this album. I can't believe that I just found it, but I was busy rediscovering Christian artists in 2005 so that's why I probably missed this gem. I love the style of Here He Comes. I like the Carlton voice in He's A Nice Guy. It makes me laugh. Ms. Holy Roller, Tell Me Why, I Wish I Made That, If You Can't Dance (Slide), Could U Love Me, Loretta, Scary Story are also very good. And of course Switch is also on that album.
And I may pick up the new Group 1 Crew because I really like Song to Sing. As well as all of the other songs they had on their MySpace, but I heard a new song last weekend on the Weekend 22, I think it was Love Is A Beautiful Thing. I also heard how they formed from a Bible Study Group to guest singing for each other until they formed a group.
And then I may ITunes it up a little bit and get some songs I like. I like Something Beautiful by Newsboys, but I may end up just getting the album. Whereever We Go, I Am Free, Go are also good songs. So we'll see.
Hee Just a little bit picky with my music, eh? Apparently Matt went to the Christian Bookstore to get my birthday presents and the guy helping him was overwhelmed a little by the number of albums. Ha! I had more and didn't even know it. I love music. Tobymac put it best. But I'm not 100% on the quote so I'll paraphrase, I hear God in the music. And in pop music over on Star 102.1, I hear the Unredeemed calling out for a God that they refuse to believe in. They're looking for more, they're hurting, but there is no truth so everything is hopeless. I wish I could help them. But it's not me they need.
Time to get to work
~Jay
PS We got Digital Cable! Yay! Dog Whisperer! And I left the dog trainer community.
We went out to Red Lobster. I guess to some people that's like the MacDonald's of seafood restaurants. I don't care. It's something that my family used to do for birthdays. I have a lot of good memories of going there with my family. I'm always reminded of my brother's last birthday. I think I tell Matt this story every time we go to Red Lobster.
I just had a really great time doing that. We went to Funscape, bought some passes to the place and went on every ride. We played some arcade games. We went into the awesome 3D theatre and had a blast on those. I got on that crazy indoor roller coaster even though I don't like roller coasters because he couldn't get on it by himself. He spent about $20 or so on this arcade game that dispenses ticket and then got some silly junk that we could have bought cheaper. But it was good fun. We went to Red Lobster. We had cherry coke. He got a shrimp cocktail and asked what would happen if he ate the tail part. I told him he'd choke, but he wanted to try anyway. And of course he choked on it. haha Then we bought tickets for Tarzan the Disney movie, but since it didn't start for an hour, we went over to the local pet store and looked at their mice and fish and stuff. And finished up with watching the movie.
Good times. But it brings to the surface issues I need to deal with. I still haven't come to terms with his death. I'm aware it happened. April 19th. I cried and mourned and I buried it deep down because there were other things, other people who needed comfort. Then I felt numb and dead for several months. And now, I fight to cry every time I think about it. That's been 7 years ago this April. It's not normal. So I'm going to deal with it. It's time to be free from that.
I also have some anger issues with some friends. It's preventing me from forming other friendships now. I'm suspicious and second guessing of the motives of new friends I try to make. I imagine problems or issues because we don't talk on a certain day at a certain time. It all boils down to suppressed anger. I'm going to deal with this too. I want to be free of it. I thought I'd forgiven, but I'm still feeling this anger.
Matt's schedule is changing again. He's going back to the 2 pm - 11 pm shift with Wednesdays and Thursdays off. We're not very happy with this change. I've been praying to find a small group, to make new Christian friends, and for God to send me an accountability friend. Someone I can confide in and go to for direction from time to time. We were looking for the answer to be Saturdays and Sundays off. I have to wonder if this isn't the answer. God working in another direction. I'll still pray that there is another way.
This weekend is the miracle offering. I really want God to show up and answer our prayers with this offering. I know He can and I just want to see it. I want to be there to witness it.
Other than this, I have a whole list of things to get done which probably won't get done today. I need to focus on the Word and commune with God for a while. I've been neglectful.
Oh! And for my birthday, I got:
John Reuben's Word of Mouth--This is a good album. The reviews were right. He's still cynical, but the style isn't all over the place.
Relient K's Five Score and Seven Years Ago--Another gotee records group like John Reuben. Gotee Records is Tobymac's record company. He's got some great bands. I already knew this album was great. I really enjoy it. My favorites would be Give Until There's Nothing Left, Crayons Can Melt On Us For All I Care, and Deathbed. Deathbed is epic!
Kirk Franklin's Songs for the Storm Vol 1--I really like Blessing In The Sun, Melodies From Heaven, and Look At Me Now. I read an interesting blog entry. It was a comment on Tobymac's MySpace so I followed it over to read the entry. It was talking about how a lot of churches try to imitate worship styles. Especially Kirk Franklin's style. I can see why they'd want to do that. It's amazing. But I don't want to imitate it. I want to learn to worship like that.
Mat Kearney's Nothing Left to Lose--I really like this album as a whole. There are a few songs that were overplayed and my all time favorite is probably Crashing Down. But I like the tone of the album and the songs overall.
I'm intending to get Kirk Franklin's other new album Hero. There are quite a few songs on it that I like. Let It Go, Could've Been, Imagine Me, Sunshine, Keep Your Head.
Also KJ-52's new album Behind the Musik. I love his sound. He's like Eminem with the sense of humor, but minus all the negatives of Em's music. He fills that hole that I had. I like some good rap. Tobymac is more hip hop than rap. He raps a little, but it's not like straigh rapping. He likes to have a good musical beat. Whereas KJ likes raps. I don't know the name of my favorite song on his album, but I think it has his daughter in it.
And Will Smith's album from 2005 Lost and Found. I really like just about every song on this album. I can't believe that I just found it, but I was busy rediscovering Christian artists in 2005 so that's why I probably missed this gem. I love the style of Here He Comes. I like the Carlton voice in He's A Nice Guy. It makes me laugh. Ms. Holy Roller, Tell Me Why, I Wish I Made That, If You Can't Dance (Slide), Could U Love Me, Loretta, Scary Story are also very good. And of course Switch is also on that album.
And I may pick up the new Group 1 Crew because I really like Song to Sing. As well as all of the other songs they had on their MySpace, but I heard a new song last weekend on the Weekend 22, I think it was Love Is A Beautiful Thing. I also heard how they formed from a Bible Study Group to guest singing for each other until they formed a group.
And then I may ITunes it up a little bit and get some songs I like. I like Something Beautiful by Newsboys, but I may end up just getting the album. Whereever We Go, I Am Free, Go are also good songs. So we'll see.
Hee Just a little bit picky with my music, eh? Apparently Matt went to the Christian Bookstore to get my birthday presents and the guy helping him was overwhelmed a little by the number of albums. Ha! I had more and didn't even know it. I love music. Tobymac put it best. But I'm not 100% on the quote so I'll paraphrase, I hear God in the music. And in pop music over on Star 102.1, I hear the Unredeemed calling out for a God that they refuse to believe in. They're looking for more, they're hurting, but there is no truth so everything is hopeless. I wish I could help them. But it's not me they need.
Time to get to work
~Jay
PS We got Digital Cable! Yay! Dog Whisperer! And I left the dog trainer community.
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Date: 2007-03-30 05:57 am (UTC)