basildestiny | FF.Net

You'd almost think that was my friend's website that is down again and taking place in emails.

But alas I refer to my latest addiction. It grew out of nowhere. In less than one day's time. FanFiction.Net has taken hold of me!

I think it stems from the fact that I want to write something. There's things inside that want to develop into characters and good plots. Interesting subtext or not. Red herrings or no herrings at all. And I've got notebooks and half written stories on my bookshelf and in the computer. But nothing ever concludes. The best I managed was with Evan Rosier. He died and that had to be the end.

I get started and then I get caught up in the grammer and whole technical aspect. And before you know it, I'm counting every time I use the same word. I try to space them apart. I'm too much of an editor. I can't just throw something out there and correct it later. I've never heard of such a thing as drafts. It's entirely my fault and has completely ruined me for fan fiction, the easiest of writings.

Maybe I should just start with a character study. Take some subtext and get myself a pairing. I've found myself reading the fluff with the most delight. Pairings in genres that I've never bothered to even think about. Or pairings that I decided weren't there. And I find myself enjoying the fluff and wanting to do more of it.

So first with the character studies and next with the fiction which I won't be sharing with anyone on LJ, but will give me a sense of completion. Some confidence in knowing I'd made it through a whole fictional story, be it fan fiction. And then on my way to more original work.

We'll see. Maybe writing this all down will motivate me.

Note to self: Buy many new notebooks at Wal-Mart this weekend for the purpose of filling them up with random thoughts and ideas
~Bas

PS Ahh, my nice fluffy icon.