The truth behind why I have not been posting lately

[basildestiny]

The truth is that I haven't had a lot to say. I have been rediscovering my faith. I had fallen way way far away from it. I had turned my back on my faith because I did not want to stand next to the crazies who proclaimed to have the same faith. But I have since realized how sad a thing that was. I only hurt myself. And I haven't written about this for two reasons. The first reason was that I really needed time to stand on my two feet again in my faith. But the second reason was that I didn't want to look like I was changing my mind and didn't know what I believe in. I had been living my life as an open-minded, watered down liberal who wasn't religious at all for so long. So how was I supposed to turn around and say to people who had known me for so long that I had put all of that aside and found the truth?

I was doing a disservice to all of you by not having any faith in you at all as friends. So I apologize to you all that I have not been more forthcoming. And I proudly and firmly declare that I believe and I have faith.

This is the good life
I’ve lost everything
I could ever want
And ever dream of
This is the good life
I found everything
I could ever need
Here in your arms

Comments

[nikgirl.livejournal.com]

You don't need to apologize for anything!

[basildestiny]

I'm gonna get mushy on you for just a second and say that you're awesome. But you're feet stink...

[vitani-le.livejournal.com]

Bas, I think your friends aren't going to look at this situation as being so black and white. We're not going to think that because you're religious that you've suddenly swung to the other end of the spectrum. You can be an "open-minded liberal" and also be religious. =) To think that it's impossible to be so wouldn't be very open-minded, now would it? Just like assuming you have the same traits as the stereotype of certain religions. We're not going to think that. So don't worry about being yourself, your friends should be able to see you for who you are. And congrats on being people to discover that part of yourself, too! ^^

[basildestiny]

I'm glad that I was shown my real self. It's not a part of me. It is me.

And I'm not an open-minded liberal Democrat anymore. How can I be? I don't support the Terry Shiavo decision. I'm not prochoice. I'm not for gay marriage. Now of course I don't hate people nor do I consider myself a Republican, but I'm not a Democrat. The prominent things Democrats have chosen to fight over are no longer things that I value.

[basildestiny]

PS I did owe my friends an apology though.