Awww. I'm sorry you feel bad. You don't need a shrink. They're all crazy.
Your being jaded will pass once you find something to obsess over. Even if it's something as simple as an RPG. I've been feeling quiet BLAH every night before bed too. I wish I could just constantly be Snape or Nott, because they make me forget about things that bug me quite easily. I hope the RPG grips you like that, or you find something else to give your all to.
I was thinking about your relationship with your sister the other day. Maybe you're supposed to be distant. I mean, you can't be close to all your siblings. I think you were very close to your baby brother, and if things hadn't happened the way they did, you'd be much happier this moment because you'd still have your favorite. I'd be devastated if any of my siblings were lost, because there's no way to fill the void of that specific relationship, because it's different with each of them. I can not understand how hard it is for you, because I still have all my pals that popped out of my mother, and I've never felt the need for a father, but I can imagine it's very tough to think about.
So let's move on... Your problem has always been that you think too much. About things. And thoughts are depressing. Because you envision your wants, your needs, and you can imagine the things you can't have to be readily available. And then you feel worse.
So just stop thinking. :) That's my advice. ;) -Punky p.s. If you ever get the chance, watch the show "Arrested Development". It is INSANELY clever and funny. It's about this rich family who's father gets set to jail for embezzlement, and his 4 kids are ALL MORONS. Plus the oldest son is a psychopathic magician, and you know how I love psychopathic magicians.
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Date: 2004-03-24 04:36 am (UTC)Your being jaded will pass once you find something to obsess over. Even if it's something as simple as an RPG. I've been feeling quiet BLAH every night before bed too. I wish I could just constantly be Snape or Nott, because they make me forget about things that bug me quite easily. I hope the RPG grips you like that, or you find something else to give your all to.
I was thinking about your relationship with your sister the other day. Maybe you're supposed to be distant. I mean, you can't be close to all your siblings. I think you were very close to your baby brother, and if things hadn't happened the way they did, you'd be much happier this moment because you'd still have your favorite. I'd be devastated if any of my siblings were lost, because there's no way to fill the void of that specific relationship, because it's different with each of them. I can not understand how hard it is for you, because I still have all my pals that popped out of my mother, and I've never felt the need for a father, but I can imagine it's very tough to think about.
So let's move on...
Your problem has always been that you think too much. About things. And thoughts are depressing. Because you envision your wants, your needs, and you can imagine the things you can't have to be readily available. And then you feel worse.
So just stop thinking. :) That's my advice.
;)
-Punky
p.s. If you ever get the chance, watch the show "Arrested Development". It is INSANELY clever and funny. It's about this rich family who's father gets set to jail for embezzlement, and his 4 kids are ALL MORONS. Plus the oldest son is a psychopathic magician, and you know how I love psychopathic magicians.