Baka

[basildestiny]

I hate people today. I do not know why. It might be because I hate the people who reply to Punky's journal. I just don't know why that means that I hate them. It might be because I feel like I am going to throw up again and I'm tired of dropping out of school, but I always get sick or something else happens but Tiffany and Ro already have their two year degree. That's bachelor's, right? Hold on, I feel like I'm going to vomit... ok, that's better. Being sick is really gross. I went to my 8 am class, realized I had a lab and hadn't brought the lab book so skipped lab, then I started feeling like I was going to hurl. I hate that I always play Devil's advocate because I hate people who always play Devil's advocate. I think Aristotle's philosophy that the truth is in reality and that we should measure and analyze to find the truth is only partially what we should do. I think that Plato's idea that the truth is in the invisible realm of ideals and can only be found through thinking is much closer. Thinking should obviously include educating yourself and learning all that you can which would include the idea of collecting and analyzing data. I wish the neighbor's dog would shut up. It is barking at the garbage collector's, but it is annoying and pierces my brain. Still. It has always done that. It's high pitched and pubecent. I hate that I bother to post on FF net. I am not an amateur film anything other than I enjoy watching Garrett's movies, but he hasn't made any in a while. That was close. Almost emptied the contents of my stomach again. Hooray! I hate that I am fat and no amount of exercising or dietary changes seems to make any difference. I feel that I should starve myself and let my body sort it out. I hate that I have to consider other people's feelings all the time. But I hate the idea of being inconsiderate. I hate the dog's barking. I am going to go lie down and hope I do not vomit.

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[nikgirl.livejournal.com]

I hate that I have to consider other people's feelings all the time. But I hate the idea of being inconsiderate.
I know... I know! And when other people are inconsiderate, it makes you wonder why you even bother to be considerate. And then sometimes you feel bad when you're inconsiderate. It's a no win situation with consideration.

You feel like the people that reply to me are patronizing me and they don't care? Maybe they are, and maybe they don't. I don't know. Sometimes it's good to hear others opinions. For me anyway. Then I can overanalize stuff. Not like they can change me.

Starving will help you lose weight, sure. But I only think it's important for you to lose weight if it will make you happier and feel better about yourself. I really don't know how some people lose so much weight. Sometimes they lose too much weight and look nasty. I know nothing about nutrition. Maybe you should eat only home made food? I've tried to help Gina. The only time we got any visual difference was when I'd make her do TORTUROUS excersizes (it was funny) and she hardly ate anything (more for me!). I don't recomend that, though. Her problem is in denial and she lacks self control. Yes, there's a cookie there, Gina. But you DON'T have to eat it. Knowhatimean?

Who cares who else has their degree? We all move at different paces. Don't be ashamed that other people have made it through school. Sometimes that's only an indication that they have no passion for learning. It's hard to make it through school when you have that passion, because you get sick of the bullshit teachers. People who get their degree don't care. They just get through with it. Like zombies. ;)

Didn't understand any of that Plato Aristotle stuff, so I'll skip it. Hah.

I hate your neighbors dog too.

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[basildestiny]

lol I just need to get a degree or marry someone who has one, I think. Well not really. But that's true about having a passion to learn. Also though, I really get distracted. I'm not very good at juggling things and I get bored with it.

Yeah, that's why I hate that I get so angry that they respond immediately. It's like I'm not really sure if they are sincere or not. If they aren't just saying what is required to be said since I don't really know them. If they really mean it, why do they give you lessons on how to look at people differently? They should know how you think. But I suppose people are different, right? ;)

Plato was cooler than Aristotle, but damn! That's a really deep idea. Much deeper than bathtubs that guy was.

My neighbor's dog finall shut up. YAY!