To coach or not to coach

[basildestiny]

I started this job with the idea that I would try front line and work my way to supervisor. I knew I could supervise. I knew I had it in me. But then my goals changed. I discovered my life was a lie. I found God to be real. Then I got married. I could make twice what I make now supervising, but I find myself wanting to be at home, cooking and cleaning, taking care of the dog and getting things in order for my husband. I want to go back to school and learn. I have no desire to supervise people at US Cellular anymore.

I feel silly for passing this opportunity up, but I have no desire to make myself that busy. I like to do things with quality. I want my home life to be quality. I want to become healthy. I don't want to continue putting task after task on myself. I want to relieve my husband of some of the tasks he's put on himself with regards to the home life.

Right now, the best we could afford is me going to part time.


I was listening to Beck "Everybody's Gotta Learn Sometime." I really enjoyed Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind. I'm in the mood for a mind teaser like that. It's so fun to think of crazy plots like that. I miss plotting too! I miss the plots that Evan and Maeve had made for themselves. I don't want to play it again. It was far too dark and depressing, but I was proud of our plot. It was complete and twisting and intriguing! I miss good plot bunnies. I need to get into writing again. But I am having trouble finding characters that interest me.

Interesting concept of the day. I was listening to The Edge talk about God. How he is outside of time. I was always bothered by the name "I Am." God calls himself this quite often and being an English major it was just kind of weird to me. Jesus is described as being at the beginning of time. But instead of saying at the beginning, I was there. It is closer to in the beginning, I am. Well there's that bad grammar again. Listening to the Edge, it became clear.

God is outside of the 3 or 4 dimensions in which I think. He is outside of time. The analogy the Edge used was that of a movie. If I go to see a movie, the characters in the movie have a present--what I'm watching now, a past (the beginning of the movie that I've always watched) and a future (the ending yet to come). To the projectionist, he can see any part of the movie at any time by pulling out the film and taking a look. The same with God. He sees all of time in one moment. At the beginning of time, he is. At the end, he is. And therefore, I Am is a good name for God.

The Edge took it a step further to say that it is never too late to pray for someone. If you were supposed to pray at a certain time, but you didn't for whatever reason, you can do it now. God will see it and can apply in the past. He already applied it. We could pray for the Jews in concentration camps. We can pray for our future great, great, great grandchildren.

I love that kind of thinking. It was a very interesting concept for me. Hope you enjoyed it.

I am so glad it is Friday!
~Bas

Comments

[bloominglotus.livejournal.com]

That's an interesting concept. I like it!

[mossytangle.livejournal.com]

Have you read Mere Christianity? If not, you should. It ought to be required reading. :-)

I also wanted to stay home when I got married. I was able to for a few months, but I started driving myself crazy. I cooked, cleaned, kept the dog, etc. But that is not enough to fill up an 8 hour day. Since I've gotten a job, our quality of home life has gone down a bit: I don't make dinner every night, and he has to do the vacuuming sometimes. But I'm much happier. I feel like I'm actually getting something accomplished. Housekeeping really is a thankless job. I do wish I could go part-time, though. Cooking dinner is very fulfilling to me. The trouble is that I cooking dinner doesn't take 8 hours.

[basildestiny]

Yeah. He doesn't think that I'll have a good time at the house all by myself. But I was thinking that I'd socialize with my family who also lives in town, but works a different shift from the two of us. We're 2:30 - 11, they are 9-5s. I also have a bunch of reading and television that I want to catch up on. And I subscription to Netflix which I never used like you guys did. Then there's always part time school. Our plan right now is that I'll work full time through the pregnancy until I can no longer do it. The trouble is that my neesting instincts have already kicked in (and I'm not pregnant). So I want to get everything in the house in order and I can't when we work the exact same hours. When we are home, we are spending time together relaxing.

I definitely agree with the both of you that I could get bored with being home by myself. But I think I could occupy myself for a while and then after that would be school and/or children. I'm just not sure what God wants me to do. He may want me to continue working full time for something else He has planned.

I haven't read Mere Christianity. But I was looking at it online last night. I want to get the Screwtape Letters and I was reading the summary on Mere Christianity to see if I should put that in my order as well. So looks like that's a definite. I think my pastor was talking about it a few weeks ago too when The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe was released. Maybe I'll check to see if our local bookstore has either of them.

[basildestiny]

I was thinking about the movie The Final Cut by Robin Williams. I don't know if you've seen that, but that's another one similar to how God is.

Glad you like it. I really enjoyed it too.

[basildestiny]

I bought a CS Lewis collection that included Mere Christianity, The Screwtape Letters and The Great Divorce. :)

[pnkrockbigmouth.livejournal.com]

I absolutely love Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless mind. It's the best love story ever.

The Edge? From U2?