Stream of Consciousness for Thursday

[basildestiny]

Isn't there a saying (I know they have it in Tennessee. They have it in Texas) that goes you're only as smart as the company you keep? I swear I've heard this, but I'm not certain on the quote right now.

My favorite cheering up song is definitely Candy. Heart or Star works for me.

I'm so frustrated right now. I don't know why that is. I think I did too much today and was too social and now I feel alone and bored. I played with four dogs today, two babies, two friends, and I voted!

But thinking about playing DDR makes me happy. It's just so fun to get on an arcade machine and dance to uber happy J Pop. I get a John Edwards' grin on my face. Sucking can be a downer though. Or having punk kids who talk about how awesome they are while exhibiting their complete lack of arcade etiquette by standing ON your dance pad can also be a downer. I need to come up with a dance move that will injure them and get them to move and then I can play silly person "Oh! I'm SOOOO sorry. Are you ok? *concerned look*"

Why do people try to shock me? I wish I cared more or showed emotion more. I'm so non-plussed by so many things. Maybe I'm too much of a character actor personality.

I need to read more, but every book I pick up lately is not interesting to me. I've got three books on my list of things to read and I just can't get interested enough to finish them. I read Bongwater while denying myself sleep, but reading books that I have been recommended to me by friends is not working!

I need to do some serious psycho-analysis of myself. I'm angry and moody and I don't know why. I would seriously stop writing in my LJ and not because I'm "leaving the fandom forever *lurk, lurk, lurk*," but because I spend all of this energy in writing my insights and opinions for the purpose of exchanging ideas. I've discovered that people don't want to think when they're online. They want to be witty and funny. (If I was completely convinced of this stereotype, I wouldn't be writing in my LJ right now.) Thinking happens to be very entertaining for me and I can't seem to find a forum to do what I like to do. But I could never just shut up and fade into the dark. I feel like I'm being too logical and annoying people lately. I can't just sit quietly.

I'll leave when I find impossible to surround myself by interesting, intelligent, and logical people.
~Bas

Comments

[nikgirl.livejournal.com]

A lot of people don't like to sit and think because it bores them a lot. Nintendo is much funner. The reason that *I* don't like to think is because it becomes depressing.

That is a saying. You must be real stupid, then. I have doubts about the company you keep. ;)