Random thoughts that keep me awake
Monday, March 15th, 2004 03:53 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
basildestinySo you guys think I could be going insane from the whole getting older idea? Who knows. I read a co-worker's journal just now and I realize it might not be just me. I feel a bit better. I should post in his journal that I'm crazy too, but then he might read my journal. And then we might actually talk at work and I just don't seem to get along with him very well in person.
I spoke with Russell today. He says he gets anxiety and sick to the stomach a full day before he goes into work. Of course, he's crazy, but I come close somedays. I refuse to be that way. I don't think I'm anxious because I'm afraid of something. I'm not afraid of failing. You want to know what it really is? I'm afraid that I will waste another 8 1/2 hours of my life doing something that makes me feel completely miserable. That scares me.
I watched Dateline on NBC. It was sad. Hoarder OCD. I would probably have a mild case of the cleaning version. Luckily it's not a gaint issue. Just random moments spark it. I keep things clean, but not to the point that I freak out if someone gets something dirty. I'll admit that I don't like it when people track mud or crumbs into my car. But I don't freak out at them.
I'm listening to Maroon 5. I like them. It strikes me that we should have more songs with gay lyrics.
I can't sleep. I got up at 3 pm this afternoon. I don't know why. I wasn't tired. I just hit the snooze on the alarm and started dreaming. Weird dreams about ghosts and monsters. About going to a zoo and being able to get up close and personal with the animals. About going to a pet shop and buying minisicule discus fish. Teeny tiny. No way would those fish be that small. Bought other fish too. I managed to carry a 20 gallon tank filled with about 10 gallons of water. That would be very unlikely.
I'm tempted to join a HP roleplay. I just don't know about it. I'm still thinking about it.
Still playing Zuma. I nearly beat the game the first time I played it. I am stuck, however, on Level 12. After Level 12, there's a space level and that's as far as I get. I'm glad I bought this game. It's quite frustrating and very enjoyable.
Fending off the evil marbles for the frog shall save the day!
~Bas
I spoke with Russell today. He says he gets anxiety and sick to the stomach a full day before he goes into work. Of course, he's crazy, but I come close somedays. I refuse to be that way. I don't think I'm anxious because I'm afraid of something. I'm not afraid of failing. You want to know what it really is? I'm afraid that I will waste another 8 1/2 hours of my life doing something that makes me feel completely miserable. That scares me.
I watched Dateline on NBC. It was sad. Hoarder OCD. I would probably have a mild case of the cleaning version. Luckily it's not a gaint issue. Just random moments spark it. I keep things clean, but not to the point that I freak out if someone gets something dirty. I'll admit that I don't like it when people track mud or crumbs into my car. But I don't freak out at them.
I'm listening to Maroon 5. I like them. It strikes me that we should have more songs with gay lyrics.
I can't sleep. I got up at 3 pm this afternoon. I don't know why. I wasn't tired. I just hit the snooze on the alarm and started dreaming. Weird dreams about ghosts and monsters. About going to a zoo and being able to get up close and personal with the animals. About going to a pet shop and buying minisicule discus fish. Teeny tiny. No way would those fish be that small. Bought other fish too. I managed to carry a 20 gallon tank filled with about 10 gallons of water. That would be very unlikely.
I'm tempted to join a HP roleplay. I just don't know about it. I'm still thinking about it.
Still playing Zuma. I nearly beat the game the first time I played it. I am stuck, however, on Level 12. After Level 12, there's a space level and that's as far as I get. I'm glad I bought this game. It's quite frustrating and very enjoyable.
Fending off the evil marbles for the frog shall save the day!
~Bas
